Day 25: Groanings too deep for words
I know that I have dreams and longings that live unnoticed and unnamed within my soul. Sometimes those yearnings bubble up within me, groanings too deep for words, and surface in ways that surprise me—like the sudden impulse to cry, to act, to investigate. I see that same phenomena in others.
I don’t always know what to do with my dreams and desires—a topic of discussion this last week with my spiritual director. I don’t always notice them for what they are. Recently, I listened to a friend share some deep longings that have been gurgling inside her. She knows the sound but doesn’t know what to make of it. Neither do I.
As the Proverbs says, “A person heart is deep waters.” I find the deep waters of my heart to be murky at times. Yet, as I strain my ears to hear, as I slow down and attend, the waters still a bit and I hear God’s Spirit in the yearnings within me.
Here are some questions to help you listen to the cries of your soul and attend to the voice of the Spirit within them:
- Where are my thoughts and preoccupations led when I let my mind wander?
- What stirs up anxious feelings? Why? What am I avoiding?
- What thoughts or actions bring pleasure and life to me?
- What ideas, thoughts, or movements do I keep circling back to? Where is God in the circling?